When Isaiah was growing inside of me, I had less and less of me and more and more of him. My body was less and less my own, and more and more of him. My organs and bones literally had to make room for him! Now that is intense - my internal organs and parts shifting out of their original spots - positions that each part has known for so many years. WHAT! Hallelujah for God's amazing miracle in child rearing...
I summed up my pregnancy with Isaiah in these words: "It is the most beautiful way of becoming less selfish."
Hallelujah that God does not leave us as we are. He promises to come along side of me (and you) and help me through each time of refinement - refinement with the purpose of bringing glory to his name and bringing me closer to him (He being perfect, much like a lazer beam used in surgeries these days, must have us be in the same likeness in order to stand anywhere close to Him - light meeting with light does not need to adjust much because it is in the same likeness.).
As the days have continued to progress through motherhood (and marriage and many other areas of life), I have had on-going moments of being beautified in the service of these boys - men of God in small packages. Some days I seem to surrender much easier to the demands that each moment can bring (and with two children, it seems like the punches to my flesh have so much more force behind them!). Other moments I need to give myself a time-out!!! When my patience has been stretched past its breaking point, I can be insensitive and rude - ouch! Those days, I can end up asking the boys for forgiveness at least three times, if not more. Hallelujah for grace and mercy reigning in a family.
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